To Every Thing There is a Season
Ecclesiastes 3

To everything there is a season,
and a time to every purpose under the heaven:

  A time to be born, and a time to die;
a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;

A time to kill, and a time to heal;
a time to break down, and a time to build up;

  A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
a time to mourn, and a time to dance;

A time to cast away stones,
and a time to gather stones together;
a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;

A time to get, and a time to lose;
a time to keep, and a time to cast away;

 A time to rend, and a time to sew;
a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;

A time to love, and a time to hate;
a time of war, and a time of peace.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8


I think I am suffering from survivors guilt, I can't take my eyes off the news of hurrican Katrina's devistation of Biloxi, it's a knife through the heart and I can not stop crying, those poor people, my heart is breaking for them, my former neighbors and friends, places I played and shopped and knew and loved, all gone, then I get mad at myself for the poor pitiful me act when I didn't lose anything and they have lost everything....I feel so helpless, I want to help in some way but know that it's basically impossible, but bills are caught up and the only thing that comes out of this pay (other than groceries and misc) is rent so I'm going to try to donate some money to either the Red Cross or see if I can find a local Biloxi charity to give to there so I know it will go to that area, I know the Red Cross will use it where they need it, but I want to help them specifically, my former home, the people I know.
  I've been feeling down the past few days again, mostly because of this, but Aiden has taken to climbing in bed with us again and sleep is a commodity that is in high demand and low supply here for me.  But on the bright side, I have my psyc evail scheduled for the 19th so I can get started on the gastric bi-pass surgery, yay! So I can be healthy and active and be around to watch my family grow, I've become obessed with that too, reading every thing I can get my hands on about it, good and bad....this will be a huge change, not just in my weight, but in every aspect of my life, less weight means more energy which means a cleaner house even! Everything will change from the clothes I wear to how active I am with Aiden to my and Chris' sex life, in a good way, and I can not wait to get this done.

Good luck with the surgery and everything,I hope it all goes well:) I hope you are feeling better soon.

I feel so badly for the people who have lost so much too Paula. Try not to feel guilty, there is NOTHING you could have done to prevent this. Just be the best mommy and wife you can be and keep those people in your prayers. Big hugs honey, you have a good heart.